Little Red

I believe I may be making progress in getting to know more members of the Tribe.  I even went so far as to plan an event, inviting all of the Tribe to attend a beach party.  Before that however, I was invited to take part in an impromptu swimming party, somewhere in the hills of Feralas.  How could I refuse when I heard who would be attending?!  An amazing chance to get to know my mentor better, meet and speak to a woman I have only seen a couple of times before, Mukwa, whom I adore, and Westel.  Bathing suits and conversation?  I was so there.  I believe that may have been a mistake.  It started out well enough, chuckling, teasing, conversation.  However, Mukwa did not have a swimsuit, and so he was swimming in the nude.  It didn't bother me, however when he came out of the water, it appears as though he offended Westel, which upset Mukwa who took it to heart that it was an elf party only.  Which wasn't the case!  I offered to go on a walk with this Tauren, Lina came along and we spoke for awhile.  Once more, I found myself defending Westel.  Thankfully, I speak so very little, it doesn't seem to strike anyone as strange, there are already assumptions flying around.  This swimming party just continued to go downhill from there.  We all returned, West didn't move away from Mukwa this time, but it appears as though we interrupted some sort of conversation between himself and a woman named Vivvienne.  To make matters worse, Keslyvan showed up.  Between glares and frowns from Westel, Vivvienne upset about something, Lina being tired, Mukwa had already taken off...I was at my wits end.  Vivvienne appeared as though she were about to cry, Westel took off after her, I am curious as to this connection, but I was certain that I had done something wrong yet again, just when I thought I was making steps forward within the Tribe, I felt as though I had fallen fifty yards in reverse.  


Yes, I had spoke to Westel about Kes.  Perhaps that was a mistake, but from the moment I met West, I liked him.  I could say it all started at a hot spring, but that would be a giant lie and what sense is there in lying to myself?  West had invited me for drinks, and I accepted.  There's something about this man.  Or maybe I'm just lying to myself.  I swear, he acts one way with me, and a different way with others, or perhaps he is simply different with everyone one on one.  It doesn't really matter.  I feel closest to him, I trust him, and I feel as though I can confide in him.  To a point.  He was there at my interview, he stood outside the tent with me while I was terrified that I was going to be turned away and offered whispered words that caused me to instantly relax and laugh.  But that wasn't the moment I first noticed him.  No, the apple festival.  Silent, stoic, while all his family was enjoying in the festivities, he was on guard.  I simply sensed something, and I still have this gut instinct where he is concerned, and he has yet to disappoint me.  I can't help but wish I had been given to him, him as my mentor, though there are moments that I firmly believe we may have killed one another.  And I do adore Lina, she amuses me as I watch her and listen to her about her life.  Anyways, back to West, we spoke at length about Kes, he seems to genuinely care for my happiness.  I told him the bold truth, and instantly I was considered selfish.  I agree.  I attempted to take his suggestion seriously, though part of me believes he may be speaking out of jealousy.  Well, when I attempted to simply walk away, prepared to embrace the emptiness and darkness I knew waited...Kes has proven to be a lot more stubborn than I had given him credit for.  


I am engaged to Kes, he deserves the chance to make me forget.  This upset Westel, and he became formal and cool.  I don't believe he got the reaction he may have been seeking, when I read his letter I was instantly furious.  But would I give him that satisfaction?  Not on his life!  I responded in kind, and of course, that was the same day as my beach event.  Which went wonderfully, I believe.  Tyrlink and I seemed to provide some much needed entertainment for the Tribe, everyone was laughing, drinking, and having a good time.  Well, everyone but Kes.  He was insulted, come on to, and sometimes often just ignored.  There is a past with Kes and my Regent, one I just found out about last evening and one that does not please me in the slightest.  However, my coolness towards Westel either bothered him or realized the error of his ways because it appears we have smoothed things over during this party, despite the glares and stares of Kes while it was subtly happening.  


That man is one of the most aggravating, irritating, arrogant, with one of the sexiest tattoo'd bodies stubborn males I have ever met!  I think he believes he may have solved the riddle that is myself, I simply sit back amused.  Does he realize that he fuels the fire?  Probably...but he doesn't seem to realize that the more fuel you throw on a fire...it will eventually grow out of control and we all know what happens when you play with fire for too long.  I will attempt to keep him and Kes separated, as only horrible things would come of them being too close to one another for too long, but even part of me is amused by the reactions.  Little Red has always been seen as the victim of the fairy-tale, my favorite version is when Red defeats the wolf herself.  I look forward to getting to know my wolf more, I believe we have much in common and I truly see him as one of my best friends now, and as his friend, I will continue to protect and defend him, even if it is from myself.  Game on.